There are some things I’m afraid to feel. When doubt starts to grow on me. When everything that was right now seems wrong.
I thought I’ve had it all figured out. Like whatever that is happening was meant to be. But deep down all I’m feeling is this ache – what is my gut really saying? Have I made the right promises. Have I said the right things.
I’m scared to feel out of love, or to fall in love. I’m afraid of running out of words to say, or to say the wrong things. I don’t want it to be this way.
Do I deny it or do I face it. Do I treat it like a passing thought. Do I need more time. I wouldn’t know. I really wouldn’t know.